im not going to bother doing any kind of attempt at spelling or gammer no one will ever read this but here we go. I feel so isolated even though i have family here at my call and i have friends at school but its like i dont hear anything they say anymore i just nod and smile and laugh when it feels like a should yet im compleatly deaf to what they say and when i go to my next class after talking to someone i feel more alone im not interested in going anywhere it seems so gloomy on the brightest of days and it feels like the days are getting longer and nothing makes me happy anymore I passed on going to the moives with my friends when they asked all i did was smile and say sorry but i have family coming over for a vist even though i dont. i feel like a poser or a drama queen but its how i feel now the only person who I used to wait to talk to each day pisses me off with just whatever she says... now what do i wait for? Now who should i talk to? well that takes it i just spilt my guts to the internet which since nobody will ever read this it will just get lost and be a small little nothing taking up memory... wow sounds like me